First Day of Spring

My Facebook Status Saturday evening read “Although I'm worn out, this has been a great week. I FINALLY brought Katy back so now operation bring sexy back is ON full speed... watch out world” and that is EXACTLY how I feel.

There have been times in my life when something has happened that has just flat knocked the wind out of my sails.  These are the times when I realize that I am truly a GREAT actress.  Please don’t get me wrong, I am in no way fake.  When I get excited when clients lose weight it is genuine, when I get sad when clients are upset it is real but I’m going to be very honest right now, sometimes, I don’t feel happy.  Sometimes I wake up and want to immediately go back to sleep.  Sometimes I have to force myself to be upbeat.  Sometimes I have to remind myself, that although life feels heavy, I’ve got to put on smile.

The last few months have been hard for me, personally.  Things have happened that made me lose sight of that inner peace and strength that I rely so heavily.  So, I did what I always do, take it one breath at a time, put one step in front of another and keep going.  But sometimes I’m such a good actress that I fool myself into believing that I’m okay. I get so use to going through the motions that I forget what it’s like to be truly happy. But lucky for me, I’m not going through the motions today.

So, you might be wondering what this has to do with my weight loss journey... EVERYTHING.  I have continued to lose during this little happy hiatus, but not like I had wanted.  I haven’t turned to food to comfort myself but I haven’t focused on getting healthy as much as I’d like either.  All of my energy was being used on surviving (emotionally) instead of going towards what is so important to me. 

Life does that sometimes, throws us a curve ball that we just aren’t expecting, and it takes time to figure it out.  It’s no fun and it can feel impossible.  So, we go through the motions and we stay the course, and eventually it passes and the season changes.

Today is the first day of spring, a new season.  I can’t wait to see what it brings.  But I do have some spring “resolutions” if you will.  I am going to enjoy the extra hour of sunshine in the evenings and walk as often as I can.  I am going to wake up in the morning to the birds singing and remember that there is so much to sing about.  I am going to take full advantage of the beautiful produce that is coming in season.  I am going to breathe the cool morning air and be thankful for the day.

You see, just as stress and sadness can affect our weight loss, so can peace and happiness.  So, the next time you see me and think “she look likes she’s lost even more weight” you can be confident that you are probably right because now that the weight of the world is off my shoulders I’m expecting the rest of the weight to come off too. 

Oh, one more resolution, I will remember to live by my motto “Life is too short to be unhappy” J