I want to eat!!!!

It is 2:48 in the afternoon and I want to eat!!!  I’d like to tell you that after changing your eating lifestyle you will never have the urge to eat out of any other reason but hunger… but it just isn’t true.  It has gotten easier but has yet to go away.  I’m sitting here… my brain racing, going a million miles per hour…   wanting to shut it up by stuffing my face.  I know it won’t work in the long run but at the moment it is hard to care.  I don’t want to deal with the thoughts running in my mind… I just want to feel happy for a minute and honestly chocolate would definitely help for a minute.

So, here I sit writing this blog, praying that it will keep me from devouring the contents of my kitchen.  I hate it when I feel this way!  It’s a sensation that is difficult to explain… It’s like my emotion is in my throat and if I swallow enough food it will push the emotion down deep enough that I won’t have to feel it… ugg!!!

One of my favorite alternatives to eating is sleeping… well I have to work in an hour so that isn’t an option.  My second choice is exercise but again I have to work in an hour, that’s not enough time to work out and clean up afterwards… ARRRGGGGG   So, I guess I will watch “House” for a few minutes and avoid the kitchen at all costs… wish me luck.